It's day 7 of my 21-day
fix
and I failed today.
I set my alarm nice and
early so that I could get up and do my workout before church. From the moment
it went off I grumbled. I decided to hit snooze one too many times and them
contemplated not getting up at all.
But I did get up. And I
grumbled my way to my living room. And I grumbled my way through clearing a
space for my workout because I forgot to do it the night before. And I grumbled
my way through switching to the DVD player and switching the disc and reading
through the warnings and blah blah blah.
When the workout finally
came on I was in no mindset to actually work. I set myself up for failure from
the moment I decided that my laziness was more important.
I went through the motions
of the warm up - trying to cheat here and there, and then it was time for round
one.
I did my best through the
first set - but it was hard.
The second set came along
and I tried, but then I felt like I was going to puke.
Instead of pushing my way
through it, I gave up. Immediately I turned the DVD off and went to lay down,
grabbing a trash can in the process just in case.
2 minutes later I was fine,
but I had already given up so I stayed where I was.
I failed.
I failed because I forgot
why I am doing this.
I'm not doing this program
to look good or feel better, although those are great side effects to it.
I'm doing this program
because I want to honor God with my body.
I want to be able to do
whatever he calls me to do and not have to worry about if my body can handle
it.
I don't want my body - or
myself - to get in the way of what God is calling me to do with my life.
THAT is why I'm doing
this.
And this morning I lost
sight of that.
Throughout this week, I've
been reminded of the verses that talk about doing everything as if unto the
Lord.
That includes my day to day
work;
that includes my job;
and yes,
that includes my
workouts.
I did not work as if unto
the Lord today, and that is why I failed.
But. The good news is that
even though I failed, the day is not lost - the war hasn't been won. Every
moment is a choice. I am choosing NOT to be defeated but rather to persevere
onward to what God is calling me to do.
Be encouraged. Even if you
fail - it is not the end!
