Love and relationships.

Okay so let's be real here for a second (not that that's different from any other post, but anyway ...).

As a woman of God, one of the hardest things for me (and I suspect I'm not the only one) is learning how to wait. Waiting for God to fulfill our dreams for life, for love, for relationships.

Let's face it, the world is so backwards these days when it comes to dating. The norm is meet a guy, maybe have a date or two, jump into bed and then possibly get to know him for a few weeks and see if it works out. If it does, move in, if not, eh better luck next time. SERIOUSLY?! I cannot for the life of me understand how this is healthy. (Please note, I am not judging, condemning, or pointing fingers at anyone here -- merely stating my opinion -- please don't take it personally or be offended). I am in classes where the professors assume that everyone is this way. They have conversations and discussions with us under the pretense that everyone is "experienced" in that sort of way. Do they, or anyone else (media, administration, authority figures, etc) even stop to consider the perhaps small, but still important population of those who choose to NOT act this way?

In all honesty, I would not want to be in high school again in today's world (granted, I'm not that far removed, but still). The shows on TV, the books, the stories all point to sex and other misbehavings. As a college student, the community I am a part of daily is also filled with the same culture, but I can choose to separate myself from it if I so desire.

Okay, I feel like this is coming out all wrong ... basically what I'm trying to say is that it's often times difficult for me to say "okay, God. I'm trusting you with my hopes of someday getting married. I will not go after a guy the way I see so many girls doing; I will wait patiently for what and who you have for me because I know that it is your good pleasing and perfect will for my life."

I wonder sometimes if it would be easier to simply say "forget it" and go live it up, but honestly, I think I would regret it as soon as I did it. For me, living for God, knowing that I have a relationship with him, is so much more important to me than having a boyfriend or even having a guarantee of getting married someday. So, I may be the only girl who doesn't have a date on a Friday night, but you know what, I would trade a thousand dates for just a few moments with my God. I trust that he knows better for me than I do and that each day he is leading me down the path that he planned for my life before I was even thought of by any other human.

This may have come off a little harsh, and I apologize if it did. I'm just trying to say that I don't get it. I see the hurt, pain and chaos of the world and simply ask 'why?' Why even try to go a day without having God by your side? I honestly don't think I could make it ...