20 May 2012

A stirring in my soul ...

There's something strange going on inside of me: a sudden stirring in my soul.
It's as if somehow my spirit knows it's summer: a time to create and be free from all the constraints of homework, lesson planning and grades.
It feels as if I'm on the brink of something about to happen: a story to unfold, a new adventure to embark.
It's as if I am preparing for something spectacular: I don't yet know what it is.

There's a tingling in my soul: so strong I can't deny it.
I'm holding my breath: getting ready for the stomach lurching jump ahead.
I'm about to take off into the unknown: soar or sink, I'm going.
It's summer: the breeze in my face, the flowers in my eyes, and the sweet melody of the trees.

I'm taking off and not looking back: plunging into the future ahead.
I'm twirling through dreams: splashing in puddles, intertwining fingers, and movies after dark
I'm immersing myself in new worlds: words floating off the pages of all the books I have yet to enjoy.
I'm setting aside time to see where this stirring, where this tingling takes me.

Graduation Celebration

I celebrated my graduation today.

It's been one week since I walked across the stage in Millersville's stadium on that lovely hot Saturday morning. The feeling of hearing my name called and recognition of all that I had done and the honors which I had received was more than I thought it would be. It was my first trip across a graduation stage and possibly my last. Who knows what God has in store for me in the years to come!

Tonight my neighbor and I (who is also a recent graduate) celebrated our accomplishments together with friends and family. We lined the sidewalks with jars filled with sand and candles, created a playlist to carry us into the dark hours of the night, and talked for hours with the people love and cherish. It was truly a beautiful evening and a wonderful way to celebrate all the accomplishments we've made over the past season in life.

What's next you may ask? Well, I'll be honest -- I'm not quite sure. I've been praying a lot lately and am really just trusting God with my future -- for real. I don't know what's coming down the pipe for the fall. I am applying and interviewing and praying for God's direction. That's it. That's all I really can do.

I am in a time of transition. I said goodbye to my sweet sweet students a little over a week ago and I'm still looking ahead to what's coming next. I hate transitions and I usually feel like I'm faltering, but I'm getting through it. With God at my side, I'll get through this period of waiting and standing still and hopefully then enter into a new phase of life: adulthood.

I am looking forward to all that is ahead. I will be working at a local restaurant and deli called Isaac's for the summer and possibly into the fall if I don't find a teaching job. I'm hoping to write a lot and actually feel as if I've accomplished something even in this time of waiting. I've already read like 5 books since student teaching ended and have an extremely long list of more that I hope to get through before August.

Life is at a crossroads, but God is good and will always see me in the right direction! =)